Sometimes I just want to undo my Mistakes~

Hmm, this is definitely gonna be a CHEESY BLOG! so, those people don't like this, please click "X" top right of your window ya? For those gonna read, here is my story. Obviously, it was a new step for me in these line of relationship. I have never in my life had a Girlfriend before (huh? some of you gonna be like, WTF? you got to be joking! how old are you? and this is your first?) Surprisingly, YES! she is my 1st Girlfriend and i'm proud of it, and i was 20years old when i got into my 1st relationship (kinda slow ryte? hehe, but what to do, its not as easy as "Hey there, wanna be my gurl?").

So, this is how i fall in love with her. I actually notice her in High School (S.M.K Dato Hamzah, Klang), Form 6 (I was a senior and she was my junior). At, 1st i'm the one noticing her from afar. I didn't get to know her through face to face but i got to know her through FACEBOOK! yes! social network! Thanks a lot Mark Zuckerberg! Anyways, i added her and she approved and we started to know each other from that day on.

I then, got her cellphone number, and we text quite often. Maybe few times a day? (20 times a day? haha, so much for a few huh?). And finally i wanted to meet her, i ask my friend who she knew also and 3 of us went out for a meal at Secret Recipe. That the first time i went out with her. She was obviously shy and quiet as I expected, but she definitely what I wanted. Then, after a few days, i ask her out on a date, just the 2 of us (she agrees). I jumped in happiness~ I pick her up, in Klang at a Train station, her mom drop her off. We went to Sunway Pyramid, for our 1st date. On the day, she was sat quietly, and stare outside the window. I know I had to say something, so as the person i'm, i start conversation with her.

Fast forward, we had our 1st meal together, at Sushi ZenMai. ohh! it's a memory i cherish, tat's one part how we started to fell in LOVE. Or maybe its just me. I gave her some of my food and in return she fed me her's. I was surprise but yea, that made me blush, but I think she didn't realize because I always order Chicken Katsu Don, where it's spicy, so yea, the hotness cover my blush. hehe.

Anyway, we watch a movie, and i think i gave her my sweater since i thought she was cold, but anyway i still gave her. I send her back after, and from that day, we started to go out more. BUT! i still didn't get to hold her hand at ALL! so, yea! I still remember how i got to hold her HAND! If, CHRISTINE CHAN MEII LINN and GARY WONG WENG KAI, you both are reading this, it was that day I got to hold her hand for the 1st time. AND the funny thing is, I ask her can i hold your hand. hahahaha!! so, KIDDISH ME. At 1st, she was reluctant but yea, she said YES, after the 2nd time I ask her. From that moment on, we held hands everywhere we go. Even in the car, we held hands (you guys sure thinking, what so special/hard about that? haha, it is, because i drive a manual car or should i say Pick-up truck) so yea, switching gears and held hands, very difficult task.

Finally, after quite a number of outings, I still remember that I sang for her 3songs that I normally sing, in my car while I driving alone. The one song, I can remember most is "S.O.S, by Jonas Brothers". YES! I LOVE THAT SONG! SO DON'T CRITICIZE ME! haha. yea, then after I sang, I saw her blush. She say "thanks" for the song.

If I not mistaken, that night while i text her, I didn't know we are in a relationship already, since neither of us declare it. I ask her so we are together? She said yes, and on JUNE 11th 2010. That was one of my most Happiest Day and she was my Official Girlfriend. I was speechless and I was like, hmm, AWESOME!

Then, we met each other parents, as usual. Since, I personally have this motto, "always meet parents, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU'RE TAKING ANOTHER'S DAUGHTER OUT!" yeap, great motto. As months go by, we grew strong and more loving together. I still can remember I find her after her school ends, since I was in college at that time and she still in High School. ohh, that were the wonderful days.

There are much of great things we done together but it's hard to pin point. but this all ends, exactly 1year 2months of our relationship, we broke up. To be exact, she text me for a break up, I was STUPID to say YES! and maybe its because I don't have the experience to handle this break up but yea. It did happen. Also it was a bad day for me, I was mad about something and maybe that's another reason why I agree.

Months go by and we are still friends till not but I don't text her often as I did last time. I only text her like 3months once? just because I also have another motto (by now you guys will be like, BEN! so many motto ah? funny la you). but yea, my other motto is "You don't own the person, UNLESS you're married to the other". So, it's been 9months since we broke up, and I still don't know the reason why we did broke up, I ask her before but as I said earlier she is a quiet person and keep it in herself. So, I told her, we break up because we focus on study yea? She agree.

As i said earlier, it's been 9months. And sometimes I want to turn back time and undo tat moment, and say to her "I LOVE YOU". but all this is nothing if the other person move on. So, i told her, who know's the future, if SHE still find ME attractive as before. Surely, I would love to be her Boyfriend again.

I think i said enough, it takes me 45minute to type out this Blog, and I suppose to study for my next paper in 2days time. haha, Ben is always be Ben ryte? Do things, 1st and think later.

p/s, Yap Sze Lee. No matter what happens, there is always a part of me that Loves You and you alone have teach me how to Love another person other than my family and friends or should I say, MY LOVER. Thanks again for being there for me even when I bullied you and made fun of you, you still close one eye and Love me much! you always made me smile even now when I'm typing. All the best in USM, Penang. Hope to see you soon on your next holidays. Thanks for those who read my blog too :)

Tc and God Bless. Amen~

~Love her Cute Smile~

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